Context: I was an ordained minister of the word for 14 years in the CRCNA. I then no longer felt a call to remain in full time ministry. I have, however, worked in worship ministry for the past 15 years, often receiving compensation for my work. In addition I have often volunteered in the teaching ministry of the Church including preaching, and have provided some level of pastoral leadership in the church during a 3-year vacancy.
My first question is about re-establishing ordination. I never felt I was leaving my call to ministry in the CRCNA. After two years, my ordination was lapsed due to the church order's insistence that one could not be ordained as a minister of the word without being in full time ministry. Given the new emphasis on bi-vocational ministry, is it possible for me to once again be ordained in the CRCNA. And if so, what would the suggested path be?
My second question is wether this would be beneficial to me and to the church? On this question, I am ambivalent. I don't feel like I have lost my sense of calling to the CRCNA. I am currently 62 years old and have been functioning in ministry regardless of office. I can and will continue to serve in any way God calls me until I breath my last breath, regardless of whether I am ordained or unordained.
I know that ordination would give me a sense of affirmation and maybe a bit of emotional closure when it comes to my feelings about the CRCNA as an institution (but don't consider that to be a worthy reason for seeking ordination).
The only real benefit I can think of is that it would open more opportunities for me to serve in the ministry of the church upon retirement. For example, being able to pastor/preach at a church in transition, or providing official leadership in a church that can only afford a part time minister. The bottom line is discernment. Would God have me pursue ordination or not?
I am interested in any insight into the first question as an academic exercise, and any insight into the later question as help in discernment.