I’m spending the summer on a study leave from Disability Concerns doing Clinical Pastoral Education (CPE) at Pine Rest Christian Mental Health Services working with men in their addiction recovery program and with men and women in their Adult Partial Hospitalization program. I’m planning to write several blogs this summer reflecting on my experiences. This is the first.
The decor of the chaplain’s office area includes a large word art of what Jesus might look like in prayer. It functions to remind us chaplains of Christ’s presence in our work and to hide a huge stain on the fabric of an office partition. Both functions remind me of CPE.
The Presence of Christ
One of my mentor chaplains said to me recently, “I evangelize with my ears. My role is to listen for the Word rather than to speak the Word.” Christian chaplains are called to minister the presence of Christ. In 2001, CRC Chaplaincy ministry produced A Place of Grace, which articulates a vision for chaplaincy ministry. This quotation explains the idea of ministering the presence of Christ far better than I can:
At its heart chaplaincy is a healing, reconciling ministry of God, an expression and extension of God’s activity and mission in the world from the beginning of time. It is a pastoral ministry in specialized settings to people who are hurting or in crisis, uprooted or dislocated. Chaplains embody, or make present, the grace of God to these people where they live or work. This “ministry of presence” frequently occurs in places where God’s presence is least recognized or expected. Like the ministry of Christ, it is an incarnational ministry that is holistic in word and deed. Like Christ, chaplains find occasion to speak of God’s grace. Like Christ chaplains “embody” the grace of God to hurting people.
Just as that word art reminds us that Christ is here among us, so our presence with people who are “hurting or in crisis, uprooted or dislocated” says, “Christ is here,” even though most often we do not use those words.
Hiding the Big Stain
That same mentor chaplain said that the men in the addiction recovery program are asking three questions of us, “Are you real? Do you care? Do you respect me?” Because the chaplain herself ministers Christ’s presence, what she does becomes secondary to who she is. CPE calls chaplains in training to identify their own feelings, history, and identity because Christ uses our presence as the primary tool for his work.
Using the word art of Jesus to hide that big stain reminds me of exactly what chaplaincy is not. Functioning as chaplains calls us to face our own brokenness squarely rather than hide it. People need to see Jesus in our own brokenness, not in a Jesus hanging in front of that brokenness. Another chaplain mentor said, “Your degrees and training may convince others that you can do this work well, but your suffering qualifies you for your work.”
Though a chaplain must take great care with self-disclosure to avoid turning the focus of the conversation on himself, he must be deeply aware of his own brokenness, suffering, trials, painful feelings, and struggles so that he can be fully present with the persons whom he serves. If he is not, he may quickly fall into advice-giving, condescension, and even disgust when ministering to another person. But adopting the perspective that “I too have weaknesses, faults, struggles, fears” helps the other to sense that the chaplain is a kindred spirit, not above or below, but with the other, just as Christ is with us in the midst of our greatest challenges.
Our presence, our attentiveness, our being with the other says to her, “Christ is with you.”
Frankly, I’d rather hide my own stains with a veneer of Jesus in prayer. I’m more comfortable with answers than questions, with authority than weakness, with qualification by academic degree than qualification by suffering, but I’m learning that effectiveness in chaplaincy requires me to walk into the circle of my discomfort.
I admire the wisdom of the mentor chaplains with whom I’m working this summer, and I suspect that every one of them would say that they never arrive, they only continue on this rewarding and difficult journey.